It was after that church incident that a friend of mine suggested that spiritual abuse is happening here, along with the many years of emotional abuse.
The thing is, I really believe that he loves me in his own way and doesn’t intend to harm me.
He believes he is standing on the side of truth and that everything he says and does is for my own good. I visited my mom recently and she observed “you used to have so many thoughts and ideas, you used to share with me everything you were learning and thinking…now you don’t even feel comfortable speaking.” It’s true. I don’t currently have the support of the church in suggesting that he is abusive.
He doesn’t believe that he is attacking my personhood; he believes he is attacking my beliefs and ideas that need to be changed, according to him. If I were to consider leaving him, I would probably be excommunicated and as outlined in scripture, I’d be expected to return to him.
Zech13:9 ‘I will bring that group through the fire and make them pure, just as gold and silver are refined and purified by fire. I will say, ‘These are my people,’ and they will say, ‘The LORD is our God.’ Jn15:7 ‘But if you stay joined to me and my words remain in you, you may ask any request you like, and it will be granted’ –*The Lord Instructed Us to Pray*; One of the simplest reasons to spend time in prayer is because the -Lord instructed us to pray. Rom,27 ‘In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness.
I did read your book and felt a huge weight lifted, now that I’ve seen a name given to my experience and finally understand that I have choices within it…but the only support in my life right now is long-distance family and friends.
I don’t have a local support system, and definitely can’t go to the church over this.
Then men began to call on the name of the LOR’ *WHAT IS THE CORRECT POSTURE FOR PRAYER?
* -There is no correct or certain posture for prayer.